Master has been spoiling me lately.

( Sex and sappiness! )

  I need to get out. WE need to get out. I am so tire of sitting in this house. The kids are driving me nuts,the dog, the neighbors, everything.

  The past couple of weeks my cousin has been staying the night here. That in it self wouldn't be a problem but he tends to show up unannounced. On top of that, he does it when I am at work. When I get home from work I don't want to socialize. I want to sleep! Especially on Monday nights and WELL into the next day. When he's here I can't do that. Then, after he leaves I have to redo everything that he helped with. I appreciate that he wants to help clean and stuff when he is here but it is something that really bugs the shit out of me. I don't even like my mother cleaning my house. Everyone has their own way of doing things and none of them do it the way I do it! So, after he leaves I have to go through and put the dishes away where I put them, UNfold my clothes ( I hang all our shirts and someone else going through my clothes is a whole nother rant), put away random things that aren't where they are supposed to be, go through the kids room and put it back together, etc, etc, etc....... I love the fact that he wants to be a part of our lives. Not too many people in our family really talk to each other anymore. He just needs to pick a different day and stop trying to help!

  Master and I had a little bit of a fight the other day. We don't fight often so when we do no matter how small the issue it's a big deal. It was on Tuesday and we were lying in bed and he told me that he was going to stay home and help me through the day because I was really really sore from work and my cousin was here. I made some snide remark and asked him "What? You gonna sit and stare at the computer all day?". He got mad and left for work anyway. All I could do was lie there and cry. I felt horrible as it was and now I was alone too.

  See, Master's new addiction is Second Life. There is a RPG group on there that he belongs to and he really gets into it. I don't mind that he is on there. I'm not the jealous wife that can't stand her husband talking to other women, so, I don't mind that he does. As a matter of fact I like it when he makes new friends (RL or on line). What I guess I mind is that he is on there for hours at a time. I guess I was feeling ignored and I'm not used to that. I am fortunate enough to be one of the very few people in our group of friends that doesn't have a constant complaint about her husband being an asshole or something, for that I should be grateful for. And besides, what Master wants Master gets. Right?

  Today I am fighting with the children, again. Over chores, again. It's the same fight everyday. I don't see why they don't get it yet. It's simple. When they come home from school they are to get a snack (not the full blown meal they always try to get), do their chores, do their homework, then they can play. Simple right? Wrong. Today after telling my oldest to do the dishes for 2 hours, he tells me that the hamster's cage was in his way and he couldn't do them. WTF? Is the cage so heavy that he couldn't move it out of his way? I don't think so! So, for being a lazy little shit he got himself grounded. Tonight and tomorrow. 

  I don't feel like playing anymore. Can someone else take over for awhile?

  Like I said in the beginning of this. I really think we need to get out of the house.

 

  I guess I should post, it has been 3 weeks.

  Last night Master and I had a date night. His sister took the boys for us and we went out to dinner. We haven't had any time alone together since my mother threw her fit. We tried to go to a couple of the nicer restaurants but as it was a Friday night everywhere was pace so we ended up at Shari's. We actually had really good food there too. Our steaks were perfect and the service was great for a change. The waitress earned herself a 10$ tip for it too.

  After that, we went to Toy's R US and got my youngest son his birthday presents. He's turning 8 on the 4th of next month. *sobs* Master of course had to buy himself a toy too. He picked up Megatron and when I looked at the price tag I cringed, but when he started pushing the buttons and it cackled evilly at me, I was sold. I mean really? How many giant robot toys do you know that have an evil cackle? He had to get it. We hit Target and then Castles. We didn't get any toys there but we did get a book called "Erotic Slavehood" by Christina Abernathy. Master read half of it last night and said that it was really good. Apparently it is two books in one. The first half is a manuel for Doms and the second is like a workbook for subs. I'll have to let you know how it is when I am done.

  When we went to get the kids we sat and talked to Masters sister for a bit. I love her. She is a very funny person and she always makes us laugh. Master and her together in the same room is even more fun as they always have some funny conversations when they are together. She taught my oldest  how to make bacon last night, so he made dinner for everyone there. My SIL said the he did really well. Maybe I have a little cook on my hands?

  We got home about midnight, I got the kids in bed and of course striped for Master. After Master had browsed the interwebs for awhile and the dog had  sufficiently made his (trying) healing ingrown toenail bleed again, I went and got him a pan to soak his foot in. I finished getting the house closed down for the night and knelt by my now flopped across the bed Master while he read the new book. I love kneeling for him while he pets me. I love just being near him. Kneeling for him and being quiet lets me reflect on the day and reminds me of my place at the same time. Also, being there naked and kneeling makes it so that I am ready for whatever he wants me to do for him.

  All in all we had a really great night. Things are picking up again as far as our M/s relationship goes. We were just not all there for a awhile. I mean the basics were there and we went through our routines but I think we got stuck in a rut. I think that mostly has to do with everyday life happening too. My willingness to serve him no matter what is the only thing that kept me going and not just giving up on the whole thing. I honestly don't think I could ever go back to a totally vanilla lifestyle again anyhow.

  Okay that's all for now I have to go gas up my truck so I can get to work tomorrow. Have a great weekend!

  Not much to talk about lately. Life has been very vanilla. Work, soccer practices, games, bills....you know the everyday stuff.

  We have been working on new backdrops for Master's web comic for a few days now. While we were working the other night my youngest son asked me a question, "Momma, is it romantic to write someones name with your pee in the snow?" Master and I stopped, looked at each other and about died laughing. All the while my son was standing there looking at us like "What?". Out of the mouths of babes.

  Master surprised me with some anal sex last night. It had been awhile and it felt gooooood. We haven't really had any time alone to play the way we want to lately so some things have come to a grinding halt.  The dynamic is still there. He wanted me to be a service slave for him more than anything when we started this anyways. And I LOVE serving my Master, in whatever form he wishes for me to do so. I cook and clean for him. I do his errands, make sure his bills are paid and I am not complaining at all about it. It's what I am here for. It's what he wants me to do. If I could, I would be at his feet all the time waiting for his next command. I belong to him.
 
  Sometimes though, a good beating is all I crave. I try not to complain about it. I try not to even ask for it. He will do it if he wants to. I just can't seem to function sometimes with out one. It centers me, allows me to focus on whatever needs to be done and of course, reminds me of my place. I know it's been a long time, when something as simple as pulling my hair, sends me to subspace. Oh well, I'll get over it.

  In August for my oldest birthday we went and had a camp out at a friends house. After we put all the kids in their tents we had our own "sleep over" with our friends in the house. I love watching Master have his way with another woman and I know he likes to watch me have my way with a women or even a man, but the point of this story is orgasm training. The male half of the other couple and I fucked for a very long time. He refused to get off until I did first (what a guy!). The problem was, was that I couldn't. I couldn't cum even though Master had said that I could before we had gotten there. Master now has me trained to orgasm when he tells me to. I have to hear his voice. I can't just do it anymore, even with prior permission. That, is going to be a big pain in the ass when we go to play at separate houses! I didn't think that it would ever work when he started my orgasm training. I guess I was wrong!

  When Master realized what was happening he leaned over and whispered in my ear "Cum for me baby." That's all it took, I came so hard that I pushed the guy out of me. In the back ground I could hear his wife saying "Holy crap!" or something like that. All I know is that I was a very happy girl!

  That's all I have for now. *KISSES!*

 

 

Master,
I sit and I wait for you to come home.
Nothing seems as important as it should.
The need for you, never subsides.
The day drags by when you are not here.
I need to be at your feet.
I need to kneel for you.
I am not happy, unless I am serving you.
I belong to you.
I live for you.
I am your slave.




Lately , the need to be a full time, at home slave to my Master has been getting worse. So much so that I ache inside. Who knew that this is where I would be in my life 5 years ago? I fought so long and so hard to get away from my ex. To be independent.

Now, all I crave, is to kiss my Master's feet when he comes home. To be ready when he wishes to use me, and to serve him to the best of my ability. I try to be a good pet. Sometimes, it's not so easy.  I know I'm not perfect but I do try. I can be a brat sometimes. Okay, I can be a brat a lot.

I had to do lines the other day because I yelled at him(he got caught in the cross fire of me already mad at the kids). I had to write "I will not disobey my Master." 200 times. Lines suck. Making Master unhappy, sucks even more.

I think right now a lot of my problem is that there hasn't been any "us" time. Either I'm at work for 32 hours at a time or he's working 10's all week and is exhausted by the time he gets home. I think we need a vacation together, soon. I know that's not all of it though. I have been wanting to stay home for a long time. The longer I am his slave, the more I want nothing but.

I know that it's impossible to live naked and chained all the time right now. We have kids, but I'm pretty sure that it's something Master and I both want, in the future. For now, all we can do is wait.

  I don't have much to say today. I am sad. I made Master mad last night. He told me that I am to be punished but not at that moment. I don't know when or how and I don't like it much. Maybe this is part of it. Sitting and thinking about what I did and whats to come. I know it's not going to be pretty whatever it is. I am going to go back to sulking now, even though I'm not supposed to. I can't help it. I'm sorry Master.

  Well, my mother has gone bat shit insane. But, we all knew she was. The latest news on her is that she canceled my e-mail account. You know, the one attached to all of my on-line accounts.

( Ramdom Stuff under here.... )
  That's about it for now. My house is being invaded by the neighbor kids right now so I am going to sign off for now. Have a great day!

 
 

  I heard a rumor on Sunday that they (the people in charge) were going to make everyone change their schedules at work. Also they are going to take the 50 cent bonus that we are supposed to get for being there on time everyday and what not.

 As it was just hearsay at this point, I let it go.

  On Monday I go and ask the person that does the scheduling weather or not it was true. Unfortunatly, it is.

  The 50 cents is supposed to be replaced with a raise for everyone. Okay, thats fine.

  The new schedule changes for anyone not already on that schedule begins on the 1st.

  That means that I have 2 choices. Either switch to the 4 on 2 off rotating or go on call. Everyone at work knows that I can not do the 4 on 2 off.  When I first got there it was the 2 doubles or I can GUARANTEE you that I will call in a whole lot more than I do. Aside from the fact that I don't have 1,200$ a month to pay for daycare.

 I mean, I can do their schedule during the school year as long as it is a day shift but what do they want me to do with the boys during all their holiday vacations and when they get sick? And summer, there is no way that I can do 4 on 2 off. Master has to be to at work by 11 AM in order to get 8 hours, my shift wouldn't end till 2 PM.  My children are too young to stay by them selves for 3 to 4 hours.

  So, I go on call. But because of that, I lose ALL of my benifits. All of my vacation pay, all of my medical, all of my sick pay,disability, EVERYTHING. It also means that my children have no insurance. We were going to put them on mine because Master's is 400$ a month to add just them. Not to mention that going on call means that I may not get ANY work for days or weeks at a time. So there is the threat of no paycheck too.
 
  I went and talked to my DNS and told her that I have to leave there as soon as I found something else. All she could say was that she understood and that she was sorry.

  I have been there forever. In 2 months it will be 4 years. I have been on the 2 doubles the whole time. Do they think that I do them for fun? I hate it, but I do it so I can be home for the boys and still provide something for the family.

  Some of you know that I was going to leave eventually anyway because of my back. But I was not going to leave them hanging when they have so many problems with keeping people anyway. Now, I am just being fucked over.

  There are about 6 people that have different scheduals than the 4 on 2 off. I am going to go the payday meeting on Friday just so I can see who walks out.

  I am beyond pissed. I am hurt and there is nothing that I can do about it. I have to find another job.

  On top of that, the cramps that I thought were long gone, had me curled up in bed crying this morning. Now I won't have the insurance to get the hysterectomy that I need so I can be "normal" again.

  Oh well I guess if it's not on thing it's another.
 
 

 Is my mother.

 When Master's car broke down we asked her if we could use her Westbay account if the problem turned out to be the fuel pump. We told her that we just wanted to know now so that if it was the pump we could get the part ASAP instead of having to wait to get it and that we would pay it off on pay day. Okay, no problem.


 So yeah, I'm having fun dealing with a third child in my life. It's SO much fun!

  So, last Friday night Master's car decided that it was going to have what we thought were fuel issues. You know the way a car acts when it's running out of gas? It was doing that only it had an almost full tank. Fun. So monday morning I have mother pick up my kids from my house so Master can take his car in and not have to worry about them getting bored at an auto shop for who know's how long. It's a good thing he has a flexable schedule and can just work 10's for the week to get in his time. Unfortunatly they shop can't get to it that day so they'll give us a call Tuesday. Okay no problem.

 
  It's Friday night now and I'm about to put the kids to bed. Master and I are going to take a shower together. I guess we'll see what happens after that! Night!

  It's been about a week since my last post, I've been trying to get the house back in order. We had so much stuff left over from the wedding that it took over the house. Not to mention the tons of gifts that I am still trying to find room for. Thanx everyone! :) I have been able to put some stuff in boxes to put in the shed. I am not sure if I should save it or just give it to good will. It is mostly kitchen stuff. It's all still useable, I just now have matching stuff! YAY!

  We have been talking about repainting the kitchen to match our new stuff. I know that we are going to be tearing down and rebuilding but it's not going to be for a few years so I guess we might as well have it look decent.

  I have been trying also to get back to serving my Master properly. But something seems out of place. Missing you could say. I have already talked to Master about it and he says that it's my self confidence. I don't know if that's it or not but I can't shake the feeling that something is not as it should be.

  I don't know. Maybe, I just want more. More time at his feet. More time under his belt. More time serving him and being used. And every time I feel like this I get mad at myself because Master IS using me the way he wants to. Shouldn't that be enough?  Then, I feel guilty. I feel guilty because it's not my place to ask for more. He will give to me what I need as he sees fit and I should be grateful for it. I am, don't get me wrong! I am greatful for everyday that he is my Master and now, my husband as well.  Maybe I'm just being too needy. Maybe I'm just too hard on myself. Maybe I just expect too much from myself. I have never been one to know the meaning of the word relax. I don't know, I'll figure it out eventually.

  Then there is work. I don't want to do it anymore. But if I don't work we won't be able to pay the bills and eat too. Maybe I could find something to do at home to make money. Anyone have any ideas?

  Then I realize that I would go stark raving mad if I had to stay home 24/7 with the boys. They are at a stage now that all they do is fight. Fight with each other, fight with their friends, fight with us. I don't mean that they beat each other up (though they do that too), I mean that everything that they do they end up screaming at each other. I could chalk it up to sibling rivalry but it never stops! Everyone keeps giving me advise but nothing is working. I just want to tie them up and throw them in a closet just to shut them up!

  I'm going to stop whining now.

  It's finally done! Master and I are married and we couldn't be happier! Everything went great with very few hicups. I could have done with out Master's step mother constantly hugging me (quit touching me!!!) and his father getting me with the squirt gun(hair spray,gel and water BAD!). My mother got mad at me cuz I told her to stop being rude but oh well.

  We have TONS of pictures and tons of left over favors. We need to weed out the pictures and do something to do with the favors. Then I need to find places for all of our gifts. YAY for new kitchen stuff!  I have no idea what to do with my bouquet. Maybe I should buy a big tupperware and stick everything in the shed.

  My Dad flew out here from Maryland to walk me down the isle.  I think that out of everything that we got or everything that everyone else did, that ment the most to us. He didn't get to do it the first time. I think it made him happy. I know my step mother was. I know I am.

  Master's parents paid for one night at a hotel for us and we got enough cash from people that we had enough for another night. It was so nice not to have to worry about anything except what to eat! The first night we got there we opened the basket that Master's sister made for us. There was stuff to eat (candy,crackers,cookies, cheese and salami) and stuff to drink. We had a snack and died.

 We went and saw Dark Knight with some friends the next day and then went to and italian resturant for dinner afterward. When we got back to the hotel I gave Master a sugar scrub foot rub and a back massage with one of thoes hand held massagers with coconut body wash. I don't think he's had a "proper" bath in ages.

  We got home today around noon. Masters sister had our boys. Her and her hubby took them to Wild Waves on Sunday. They had a blast! I guess they went on every single ride that they could. My youngest was only told that he couldn't go on one ride due to his size. He was thrilled! He's never been able to go on very many rides. I am glad that they had fun.

  So I am going to leave you with a picture and go serve my Master before we go to bed for the night. Sweet dreams!






 

  I haven't written a word for about a week or so. I'm sure I'll get in trouble for it later.

  I'm tired and sad and I want this week to be over with. Apparently I have pissed some people off and no one has bothered to tell me to my face, I don't even know what I did. The person who told me about it is going to have them call me, or something. She told me that no one wanted to make me upset before my wedding. Whatever, I would rather know now than later.

  Also I was told that no one wants my youngest at their house because he is out of control. Um.....why didn't anyone tell me this!? If I don't see something then I can't do anything about it. I don't expect anyone to parent my kids for me but if they are doing something wrong and I'm not there to see it then I need to be told so I can. But at least now I know why people haven't been calling us to go do things like they used to.

  I fucked up my foot at work and now I don't know if I am going to be able to wear my shoes that I bought for the ceramony. I can walk on it with little to no pain but my whole foot is swollen. The brusing I have is going away rather quickly because of the anti bruise ointment that I have but the swelling is getting worse. I know I didn't break it because I wouldn't be able to walk at all without pain. I don't really think it's sprained either. Only one side of my ankle is swollen. It's weird. I don't even really have a limp.


So now I am going to go put my foot up and sleep. Hope you all have a good night.

10 more days.

Dress is made. Just need to get fitted.

Vows are written.

Bouquets are made.

 Boutonnieres are made.

Shoes for me have been bought.

Food is being bought.

Got to get tables from work.

Need to get outfits for boys.

Need to get shoes for Master.

Need to get license.

Need to hang the next person that asks me something and then tells me that it can't be done that way.

  Master and I went to Oregon to see some friends for the 4th. We took the kids with us and had our first ever family trip. We went a day early because we didn't want to hit the holiday traffic and be pissy when we got there. We got there much, much later than we had planned due to some miscomunication with our dog sitters but the drive went very well once we got going.


  We got home about 8:30 pm, unloaded the car, let the boys play a bit, greeted our poor neglected puppys (yeah right) went to the store to get some pizza and now it's 12:30 am and I am beat. It was a good mini vacation. I think I'm going to go to bed now. Have a good one and please excuse my spelling errors. I hate editing when I'm tired!

  21 more day to go until I can STOP thinking all girly! I mean, planning our wedding, has brought the girl out in me so much so that whenever we go to look at wedding stuff Master makes fun of me.

  I am not a girly girl. Not that there is anything wrong with being one. I just am not. I don't wear dresses on a regular basis. I don't wear any makeup. I don't do my hair and if you try to give me anything pink,  I might just puke on you. But ever since we decided to do the wedding stuff our selves, the girl in me has come out. One of the first thoughts I had when we set our date was, "How am I going to do my hair and make up!?" GAH! GAG! I even agreed to get a manicure and a pedicure! *Faints*

  Anyway! Everything is coming together slowly. We have most everything that we need. We just have to put it together. You know, all those little table toppers, guest treat bags and what not. I began making my bouquet tonight and almost have that done. It doesn't look too bad I guess, Master said that he likes it and that's all that counts in my book. I will start on my MOH's probably Tuesday. I cheated and bought a premade one to toss.  :)

  I have no idea how my dress is going. I have only had one fitting. I do trust her tho. She did after all, make her daughters dress the night before her wedding and it fit perfectly.

  The biggest thing really left to get is the food (which we started to get and put in the deep freezer), drinks and the tables and chairs. We also have to get our sons outfit's but I don't want to do that till the last minute anyway cuz I know if I get them now they will grow out of them just to spite me.

  We are going to go and get Master's ring tomorrow. We were going to use the one he's been wearing but the one I had that matched it, broke. But then I found the one my mother gave me years ago and I never wore in my closet. It's black hills gold with Master's birthstone! Perfect!  So now, we are going to go and try to find one that comes close to matching mine only with my birthstone if possible.

 So now it's 2:15 am and I have to get some sleep. Have a good day everyone and sorry my life has become so vanilla lately! I'm sure (hoping) things get back to normal as soon as the wedding is over.
 

 

 

  I need to post but my head is clogged up and I can't think straight. I swear if I'm getting whatever it is that Master has I'm gonna.........not finish that sentence.

  Is it hot in here or is it just me?

4am
  Master has been sick and last night just as I laid down to sleep he starts blowing his nose, for a very very long time. He gets up and says that he feels a hell of a lot better than he has all week and gets on his computer. So I gave up and got out of bed and tried to get on my computer. I did get it turned on and I did set up my windows but Master had decided that he was going to look at porn. Yup, you got it, I didn't get on my computer. I was already on my knees so he took advantage of it and I got a mouth full while he flipped thru pages and pages of nakedness on line. Then I sent him off to work with a grin and crawled back into bed.

  But I have kids so that didn't happen for very long either.

  Oh well at least Master allowed me to use my plug today.  Maybe sleep will find me tonight. And that is all I'm gonna say tonight.

   Not in the mood to post much. I was in the hospital Saturday night/ Sunday morning. It's just my back...again. I wasn't sure what to say to the RN when he went to give me my shot that burned like hell and asked why I had brusies in my ass. I thought they were down lower. Oh well. Going back to bed now.

   So, I have been staring at the screen and can't come up with one topic to write about tonight.  I guess that means that I'll have to pick more than one. It seems like all I do lately is complain on here. But oh well. If you don't want to read it, you don't have to.

  I went and returned the cake topper that Master didn't like today and got an archway instead. It'll be good for pictures and it gives a place to walk to for our vows. After that the boys and I went to the dollar store and I found some BBQ tools and some other little things for the wedding. Of course the boys were bugging me the whole time about getting stuff and I think that if I hadn't been watching them the whole store would have ended up in the cart.

  We came home and I tried to get our room in order but because of all the bags of wedding stuff there was no way it was getting done. I had to call Master and ask if he'd stop and get some boxes on his way home. Things look much better now. Or they will when I get done.

  Master surprised me last night with a spanking and nipple clamps. I love my nipples and breasts tortured, so I was drooling after a few minutes of the clamps. We haven't been able to use them till now cuz I got my nipples pierced and had to wait till the healed. It's been awhile since I have had a good hard spanking so it actually made me squirm and apparently yell cuz I ended up with the ball gag firmly in place. When he was done beating me I was flipped over and thoroughly fucked. I didn't get to get off, as I couldn't ask for it and I wasn't sure if Master intended for me to so I didn't. And even though I didn't, I slept like a baby, completely happy.

  The boys are going to Ocean Shores this weekend with one of my aunts and a bunch of my cousin's. Master and I have to stay home due to him having to have oral surgery.  It sucks that our time alone will be with him in pain but at least it's time alone and our kids will get to be with family that they don't get to see very much. They will have fun.

  I got conformation that my Dad and step Mom will be here for our wedding. So it looks like my Daddy will get to give his little girl away after all. My step Mom was the one who insisted that I get a dress (this time) and that's how our "small ceremony" turned into 100 people being invited. I guess they wanted me to do it right this time, and NOT 8 months pregnant.

  Anyways that's all I have for now.

 

  Well, we have been shopping for two days now and we are no where near done buying stuff for our wedding. We have mostly table topper stuff and trinkets. I found toasting glasses for us and our MOH and best Man. We got a really nice leather bound guest book, table cloths and things like that. But buying enough plates, napkins,silverware,cups and stuff like that is almost impossible to get cheap for 100 people or more with out going, well, cheap. I can't find decent plastic plates that come in a package any bigger than 25-30 and doesn't cost 10$ for just that. Cups aren't so bad, silverware either as far as finding them in bulk but I don't want to go to different places and have everything miss matched.  I know, anal right? I think I'm going to have to try Costco or something like that.

  I found some really nice costume jewelry for myself and my flower girl. Possibly my MOH too. The only problem is that my "something old" is gold and I couldn't find anything gold that wasn't gaudy. Unless of course I went and spent a fortune at a real jewelry store. So, now I have to change my something old to match everything else. Or maybe not. I'm getting kind of tired of everyone else telling me that it has to be done a certain way. But I kinda don't want to bitch too much cuz Master and I really aren't paying for much.

  I got some simple chains for my boys to wear instead of carrying the traditional pillow for the ring bearers. They will each wear one of our rings on the chain when hey walk down the isle. After which the MOH and Best man will take them until the end of our vows. After Master and I say our vows we will bring the boys back up and they will have their own vows to say to us as well as us to them. We will then give them back their chains and Master will place a silver band of their own on them. So, in a sense they will be marring us too.  The rings won't fit them but the symbolism is there and I know that at least my oldest will appreciate it.

  I also went and had my first fitting for my dress. The person doing it for me put together a sample dress to see what size I am so that she didn't have to cut the real material and fuck it up. The top fit great. It was a little big in the bust but that's no big deal. The part that almost made me cry was the skirt. She made it in a size 8 and it was too small, according to the pattern I'm a 16. *sob* Apparently the pattern is measured in European sizes, so I guess their 16 is our  8 and that made me feel a little better. I KNOW I am not a 16 in our sizes here.

  I guess we do have a lot of stuff out of the way. It just doesn't seem like it. A lot of the stuff we need we have to wait to get till the last minute. Like the food. I think that's the biggest  expense we have. But we can't get platters of stuff and have it keep for a month.

  We also got our youngest son's ear pierced. He finally gave in and got it done. He got his birthstone and when he found out he got two he was really happy for some reason. My oldest on the other hand just had to argue with me about it cuz he only got one. I kept telling him that that is because his birthstone is a really funky color and he chose the silver ball, which only came as a single. So we had to get him another earring. He got his first hoop. I'm not sure he's ready for a hoop but I guess we'll see. He has lost countless studs and in my experience  hoops got lost easier.

  Anyway I am really tired we were out all day. I am going to go to bed now.