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I sit and I wait for you to come home.
Nothing seems as important as it should.
The need for you, never subsides.
The day drags by when you are not here.
I need to be at your feet.
I need to kneel for you.
I am not happy, unless I am serving you.
I belong to you.
I live for you.
I am your slave.

Lately , the need to be a full time, at home slave to my Master has been getting worse. So much so that I ache inside. Who knew that this is where I would be in my life 5 years ago? I fought so long and so hard to get away from my ex. To be independent.

Now, all I crave, is to kiss my Master's feet when he comes home. To be ready when he wishes to use me, and to serve him to the best of my ability. I try to be a good pet. Sometimes, it's not so easy.  I know I'm not perfect but I do try. I can be a brat sometimes. Okay, I can be a brat a lot.

I had to do lines the other day because I yelled at him(he got caught in the cross fire of me already mad at the kids). I had to write "I will not disobey my Master." 200 times. Lines suck. Making Master unhappy, sucks even more.

I think right now a lot of my problem is that there hasn't been any "us" time. Either I'm at work for 32 hours at a time or he's working 10's all week and is exhausted by the time he gets home. I think we need a vacation together, soon. I know that's not all of it though. I have been wanting to stay home for a long time. The longer I am his slave, the more I want nothing but.

I know that it's impossible to live naked and chained all the time right now. We have kids, but I'm pretty sure that it's something Master and I both want, in the future. For now, all we can do is wait.